anger

today i learned about anger. i have always lived life as a somewhat invisible person. i don't like to be the center of attention. true story, i was in a room and my mom walked through and asked where i was...i was on the couch looking at her. my sister demanded attention. i don't think she did on purpose...it's just how she was. my mom looked at me a few months ago and said "after having your sister, i just didn't have the energy for you" it wasn't an apology, it wasn't said in a sorrowful tone...it was just the facts. was i hurt? yes. was i sad? yes. was i angry? i thought i was...until today. i have always considered myself to be an angry person. i sat down with my preacher today, upset and confused, because i know that i should be slow to anger, yet i live an angry life. he laughed at me..lol. he said that i am very controlled if i'm so angry. so we talked a little about a situation at work that recently happened. (long story short-i had a great idea, someone was trying to take credit for the idea. managers are involved on my behalf because i don't care if my name is on it, but they do.) so he told me that we needed to look at the definition of anger. i learned that i'm not an angry person..it's ok to stand up for yourself. sometimes it's important to MAKE yourself seen instead of just being content to hide behind others. so here's hoping that i can learn to stand up for myself. not worry about what other people might think of me if i look at them and say "No" i'm going to learn to the take the compliments and move on instead of trying to "aw shucks, it's no big deal" my way through life. i have been placed in a wonderful job with great opportunities, and i'm there for a reason-if i keep doing things to change protocols with the patient's best interest in mind, then it's all good. i learned today that i AM slow to anger, i cautiously move forward in a reasonable manner...that doesn't equal angry. it's not such a fine line after all...who knew?

personality quiz

Results of Your Type A Personality Test

Personality Type
Your score = 32

What does your score mean?

You seem to be in the middle between the Type A and Type B personality. In this case, the middle ground is good. Your attitude to life is more of the "smell the roses" kind and you know how and when to relax. Nonetheless, you realize that picking up a challenge and competing a little bit for your place in the sun can add some spice to your life. The equilibrium is important, so don't let your hostile, aggressive, and competitive alter ego take over too often. Generally, you are easy to be around, and people tend to feel relaxed and comfortable in your presence. Yours is a very healthy attitude towards life.

here's the link if you want to try it...
http://discoveryhealth.queendom.com/type_a_personality_access.html

why?

I can understand a lot of things in life...i deal with death at work almost every day. what i can't understand is what could make a 12yr old decide to take their own life. one of todd's friends died yesterday. the rumor is that he was found in his room after he hung himself. what could possibly make a 12 yr old child decide that was the only answer?

greetings and salutations

hey there peeps! all three of you..lol. life is going well, kids are doing great. todd made honor roll for the first time since 3rd grade, erin of course continues to do well with school and has designed a christmas card. i bought a box because it was a great card and also because she's excited to be "published" most of you know that erin loves to draw, so this is a big deal for her. normally i would never pay 15 dollars for a box of 10 cards..but it's not everyday that your little girl gets published. i'll try to add the picture on here..but i'm not sure how i'll do.

facebook peeps...sorry if i have disappeared from your list..i didn't delete you, somehow my friends list went crazy and deleted almost everyone. send me an invite and i'll re-add you.

sports are finished for now, but will start up again around feb or march. they seem to be sticking with soccer and baseball, so that makes me happy. don't have to buy a bunch of new stuff :)

work is going well, i'm training a new graduate right now. she's almost finished with day shift and then she'll move to night shift with a different nurse. the chair thing is working out well. getting alot of compliments and learning the ropes on rubbing elbows with higher ups. we had a fancy lunch thing last friday (UK's 20th annual research papers day) met a bunch of people that already knew who i was-so that was different. i'm pretty sure i used the wrong fork though. oh well, you can take the country girl to the city, but you can't take the country out of the girl :)

hope all is well with everyone and have a safe and happy turkey day!

love
j

ps..the caption in the picture says "Remember the Christ in Christmas"

oops

forgot to add this to the last post so you could see my hair


j :)

new pictures

hey guys...checkout facebook for some new pictures. Sara got married over the weekend and erin was the flower girl. todd was the usher again. also...i got a haircut..and yes, i got them all cut..lol. it's short. i'm trying to get used to it and mandi has been giving me hair tips. but i'm not a fan. the picture isn't the best, erin took it on todd's phone, but you can get the general idea that i have been sheared. hope this finds everyone doing well!

love ya
j

promotions, education, and sports, oh my!

Promotions
Started as Chair for the Markey Cancer Center Evidence Based Practice Council today. (wow, we have a long title..lol) It wasn't too bad. I'm too polite to be in charge of anything. I have a hard time keeping people directed and on task. In other words, I need to get better at telling people to shut up and get back to business. :) All in all, I liked it. I have to figure out what to do with all the paperwork involved, I can't leave it at work anywhere, and I hate to bring work home...I'm sure I'll figure something out.

Education
The kids started school yesterday. I'm now the mom to a 7th grader and 4th grader. WOW! I feel old. Todd is doing so much better this year. He's excited because the majority of his teachers have something to do with the academic team. He didn't make it last year cause he chokes when it comes to tests, but he's ready for it this year. He's still playing french horn, and I'm pretty sure he's the only one in his grade. He promised to not give me trouble this year and for the first time is excited about going to school. Erin is her usual bubbly self and ready for whatever the world throws at her. That girl is my hero! She can take anything and just roll with it. I wish I could be more like that. She informed me during the Teen Choice awards last night that she is able to try out for chorus and drama since she is in 4th grade and would like to do that. So in addition to art club and girl scouts, she's getting into music and drama, yay!

Sports
I love baseball..baseball is my life! It seems like most of my life is spent at a field of some kind. It used to just be baseball with Todd, then Erin started playing softball a couple years back. She hung up her glove in exchange for a soccer ball last year and loves it. So in the next month, I will have Todd playing in Senior League Fall baseball, and Erin will be playing fall soccer. Somehow between all their activities, I have to find time to work and maybe clean a house. OH MY!!!


hope everyone is doing well!!!

love ya
j