promotion..Madam Chairwoman, I presume??

I am on a council at work..it's incredibly boring to describe, but we basically get together once a month and review policies that need to be updated and try to find ways to make the nursing process more accessible to the staff. Always shooting for bigger and better...in theory. I still see myself as a child with a lot of things. I've only been in the working world for 7 years (6 of them at Markey). That's a drop in the bucket compared to some people I know. Recently one of the members took a position higher up on the food chain. She was the Chair for the group. My manager has volunteered me to replace her as chair! Part of me is excited about that. I kind of miss the whole school thing, but I'm not ready to go back-so this gives me reason to research. But there is something about doing things because I want to do them, not because I have to do them that is making me drag my feet about saying yes to the position. It means having to do some work at home. No pay raise. Once a month I run a meeting. ME! The person who doesn't like attention or tell people what to do has to keep people on track. If you read the post about my last 15 years, you know that I have been really busy and in my opinion haven't been able to put my family first for a long time. Now that things are calming down, I am able to have fun with my kids. I have more free time to play and be goofy. It's kind of nice to say yes for once when the kids want to go throw a baseball, or kick a soccer ball, or go roller skating. Why would I want to do something to take up my free time? I'm caught in a competition in a way with my manager and the manager for the other floor. My boss feels like one of us should chair since the other floor has represented for the last 10 years or so. And with my only 6 years of experience, i am somehow the more experienced of the two of us from my floor. (Hope I haven't lost anyone yet, this is mindless rambling..lol) Anyway, the current stand in for chair has said that she will take me under her wing and we will work together for a while until i decide if i want to do it or not...what do you guys think?

the last 15 years...in reverse :)

I had to go backwards with this cause I couldn't remember all the details. Start at the bottom and read up so that it all makes sense

(Becky you might want to skip some of this if you read it...sorry)


2009-so far so good! been enjoying the kids and life. Todd is 12 and Erin is 9. Still working at Markey Cancer Center as a nurse-been there for 6 years now. Life still has it's ups and downs, but I can handle it all because I know that all things are possible with God. I used to have a lot of anger towards Roy for a lot of things-but I don't anymore. I forgive too much, if that is possible. My job can be very difficult..I deal with a lot of death and depressed patients/families/co-workers.

2008-pretty good year. It was a year of healing. I had surgery towards the end of 2007 so I was physically healing. Learning how to love again-emotionally healing. Still adjusting to not being able to just get a hug from my dad to make my day better. But I have pictures and memories. And his blanket is almost as good as a hug. Todd starts Middle School this year! 6th grade. wow. Erin has surgery #8 for ear tubes....still waiting on her to grow a little. Little Bit is still trying to reach the 50 pound/50 inch tall mark.

2007-Not a good year. Split up from hubby (he won't hold a job and I found some questionable phone numbers and other things to indicate he wasn't faithful) and moved out and lost my dad and that was all before the middle of January. Picking up the pieces and moving on, cause that's what i do :) In July I started dating a wonderful man and learning what it's like to be like most other people-just a single mom that works. It was hard to not have to go check on Daddy every day, but a strange relief too. Had to have my galbladder out in March and in December I had to have a total hysterectomy. I also rededicated my life to God. What a year!

2006-Stressful year, but most of the stress was going away. Nursing Graduation/College Graduation happened in May. New marriage happened in March. It was a quick whirlwind kind of thing. Lots of adjustments with living life and not having homework anymore. :) John is the new hubby and very helpful with my dad. Daddy has trouble getting around and I have to do most of his care. My mom is coming around and helping out alot more. The kids are a little afraid to be around him I think. He would hate that, if he still knew who they were. He thinks Erin is me most of the time. That's hard. But he knows who I am too. Wonder what it's like in his mind.

2005-still trying to get through. lots of doctor appts. Erin is always going to either family doc or ear doc. She's 5 and has had 5 surgeries. 5 sets of ear tubes. The doctor keeps saying she will outgrow this problem. I hope so. Daddy has a lot of appts too. I had to take his keys away. That was NOT fun. My mom is in denial with most of what's happening with him. Todd is 8yrs old and having problems with school and anger issues with the divorce and problems with Grandpa. Roy has remarried and it's hard on the kids. Still playing baseball and I'm trying to keep things stable for them both on my end. Met a really great guy and getting swept off my feet :)

2004-tough times are happening. Daddy's health is going downhill, grades are dropping. It's hard to work, go to class and clinicals and get the kids where they need to be. Had to quit the job at Cracker Barrel. Only working at UK now. Didn't pass one of my classes by 1 point. I have to sit out a semester of school. This means instead of graduation in 2005, I will be done in 2006.

2003-School going great, making all A's. Working at Cracker Barrel and Dover Manor Nursing home until July-then started working at UK Markey Cancer Center as a nursing care tech. Enrolled in the nursing program on a rolling admission (that's a good thing) Todd is 6 and Erin is 4. So far Erin has been through 3 surgeries- 3 sets of ear tubes and with the last surgery she had her tonsils and adenoids removed. My baby no longer sounds like Darth Vader. Kids are adjusting to life with divorced parents. Trying to keep things as normal as possible.

2002-Started going back to school, decided nursing is the way to go. Todd starts playing Tball. Erin learns the joys of the ballpark. Marriage fell apart (no big surprise there) Roy leaves the day after Father's day. I pick up the pieces and move forward as a single working mom/college student. Working at Cracker Barrel and Dover Manor Nursing Home.

2001-Living life, thinking about the future and if I should go back to school. Todd is in preschool and 4yrs old. Erin turns 2 and enjoys going to Todd's school to see the kids. (She's always been a chatterbox..lol)

2000-Moved back to KY in May. Todd and Erin got to see what it was like to live in a house with a yard full of grass and trees! Very happy to be back home and near my dad again. Todd is 3 years old and Erin celebrated her first birthday in KY.

1999-Came to KY for a visit, found out I was pregnant again (very happy) Marriage went through some rough times-but we were soldiering on. Todd turned 2 years old. Erin was born in October.

1998-Living life on an Air Force base and enjoying life for the most part. Marriage wasn't exactly what I thought it was supposed to be, but I was in love and mostly happy.

1997-Moved to AZ in January, Todd was born in March.

1996-Graduated high school, got married.